Oh god.. why im such a burden to everyone? i always making my mom sad, i just didnt mean to do that.. its just.. ugh, no one will understand me.. and in my siblings im the most problem child to my parents.. i guess. and one of my siblings seem doesnt really like me.. he never treat me like brother and sister. and thats the reason that i dont really like to go near boys. (maybe) ugh. pathetic huh? maybe im just thinking to much. hm.. i've been wondering.. it is the best way if im just disappear? no no no, think positive Aleeya. there are more peoples out there that suffering more than you so just be grateful! and my motive posting this post is to let out my stress cuz i cant hold it anymore. okey thats all, have a WONDERFUL day. :(